Irrational Fear # 27

ir·ra·tion·al  [ih-rash-uh-nl]
adjective

1. without the faculty of reason; deprived of reason.

2. without or deprived of normal mental clarity or sound judgment.

3. not in accordance with reason; utterly illogical: irrational arguments.

4. not endowed with the faculty of reason: irrational animals.
courtesy of http://dictionary.reference.com


Even though I am armed with an understanding of the word does not mean that my adult mind always allows for the application of that understanding.


I have irrational fears.
There I said it.  I'm like a drinker at AA.
Now you should all say something positive and encouraging.


There are things in life that although I know that I don't need to be frightened of them, I still am.


Irrational Fear #36 ~ Dentists.
More precisely my fear is related to a dentist's desire to stick sharp metal objects in.to.my.mouth.
Although I go to the dentist two times a year, I still struggle with nervousness and anxiety before and during the appointment.

So when My Hubbs said let's do this:



My first thought was not "Oh how cool!  Hubbs wants to adventure race with me!" 
It wasn't even the memory of how T stated after her shoulder smashing adventure race attempt that she would never do that again. 
It was my Irrational fear #27.  Confined Spaces.

I've look into many adventure races included the Tough Mudder series and I know that they all include at least one element in which my Irrational fear #27 would come into play.  Say for example in this VA Tough Mudder, there are itty bitty tiny black tubes that you have to crawl through that may or may not dump you out into muddy cold water.  So tubes equal confined space.  And let's just talk water.  It's the biggest potential confined space there is!  If I am under the water don't EVER touch me or I'll freak out!  Because you've just made being under the water a confined space. 
yeah I have issues
Even though my mind raced with all my irrational fears, what came out of my mouth when Hubbs asked almost surprised me.

Sounds GREAT, hon!  Let's do it!
Because when it comes down to it, there are so many reasons why I should do this race despite my irrational fears.
1.  I get to race/run/have a blast/be supported by/encourage my hubbs while doing what I love...running (bonus...while covered with mud)
2.  The enormous entry fee aka I could have run 2 ultras for this price goes partly to benefit the Wounded Warrior Project.  Many in my family and my husband's family have or are serving including my husband and recently retired FIL.  Although only my BIL has ever been wounded during actual active duty, we know many families who are not as fortunate.  If you would like to donate to the Wounded Warriors Project and help me towards my goal of $150.00 please click HERE.  It may just help you later...hint hint giveaways coming soon.
3.  I have to keep moving forward and growing in the person I am.  I need to set aside the limitations I've carried for years and in doing this I'll at least face one...or two.
4.  It will be an amazing great time with Hubbs....and no kids.
5.  I would love to honor my father and all those in my family who have served by giving back.

Speaking of giving back remember you can get in on that part too by clicking HERE and helping me raise $150.00 to help the Wounded Warriors Project.  As we approach September 11th, I know many of us are filled with a mix of emotions.  Do something positive.  Give back to those who have given.